Life is Life.

February 6th, 2007 | by audit |

Well it’s been a few days since my last attack and I’m starting to get most of my movement and voice back. I’m also starting to take more stock in my life and what’s the most important to me. That’s simple once I cut through all the crap.

  1. GOD
  2. Family
  3. Country
  4. Friends

When something happens to a person like what has happened to me, you really find out who your TRUE friends are and who aren’t. Between my wife, folks, and a couple friends on forums, the word got out quick about what happened to me, since then my phone at home or my cell has rang a total of 10 times and it’s from the same people that I can count on 1 hand to check on me. I’d had figured that e-mails would be coming in but nope. So what I’ve been trying to do is forget all the negativity in my life and separate myself from those negative people and things.

One good thing about my cell phone is I can pick a certain caller and change the ringer to silent so I never hear the phone ring. I’ve done that to a few people in my list because I really don’t need to hear about things that would’ve gotten me all fired up before and to be honest, I think some of them are trying to fire me up again, which means stress and that’s what I’m trying to eliminate. Xanax has been a wonderful thing for me when I feel myself starting to stress out, I just take a pill and relax for a few, 20 minutes later I don’t even remember what it was that I was stressing out over.

I’ve also gotten to spend more time talking with someone that I’ve know for almost 30 years but was away from him for close to 15 due to family and work. He’s been a true friend when it comes to talking to about anything really. I’ll be 38 on the 18th of February and to be honest, I’d like to see 60 at least but without the changes in my life that I’ve had to make, I don’t think I would’ve seen 40.

Some of my ex co-workers that I thought were friends have dropped off the face of the earth when I even try to say hello over IM, I’ve come to understand that unless it benefits them by talking to me, they won’t. Some of these people seem to think that I don’t know what’s going on in people’s lives because they forget my background.

Like the title says, Life is Life.

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