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Disability-here we come

March 28th, 2007 | by audit |

Well yesterday the paperwork was filed out for Karen to get on disability and today FedEX is supposed to come pick it up. I decided to go with a company that specializes in the field to increase our chances of her getting it. She’s gotten to the point where she’s stuck in the grand canyon and every way out is covered in grease. What I mean by that is that the drugs that she has to take to function makes her fail EVERY damn drug test she takes even though she lists them on the tests and has prescriptions for them but if she doesn’t take them, then she’s jeckle and hyde. My folks call it stuck between a rock and a hard place but that phrase is used too much as it is so I like making up my own phase for it.

So I’m spending every free moment that I have trying to cut back on as much as I possibly can as far as our bills go, our cell bills are as low as I can get them, and I’ve gone through everything with my folks trying to figure out a way to cut back even more and at this point there isn’t anything else. I’ve decided not to even refill my meds that I need to control my TIA attacks because of the cost of them just so we can have that extra money for food and gas for me to get to work. The last meal that I had was Sunday. Instead I picked up a 5lb container of Creatine powder and am drinking a few glasses of that a day. One reason is to try to put the weight back on that I’ve lost since I’ve had my TIA attacks since I’ve lost over 30lbs since January and the other reason is I should be able to get enough protein from these drinks to get me by.

Now I know that this disability process is a VERY long and time consuming process and there’s a good chance that we won’t know if she get’s anything for possibly 5 years but at least it’s in the works. Now comes the time to figure out ways to keep a roof over our heads and food in the kids stomachs. I’m not seeing any weekend vacations coming anytime soon in our future short of our normal camping trips that we take in the summer to my folks camper since that only costs what I spend in gas for the weekend to drive back and forth.

Tonight is Brittany’s school play so after we get back from there, I’m going to be on the computer checking google and seeing if we’re able to get any assistance from anywhere. I make too much money for us to get any state assistance but so does anyone making more then $10hr for a family of 4. I have nothing against people who are not US citizens but I’ve been told too many times from friends who are and aren’t US Citizens and state people that if we weren’t US citizens then we’d have no problems what so ever and we’d have all the help we’d ever need. Now that’s where I have a problem, why the hell doesn’t the state provide the same help for EVERYONE???? I don’t even want to go there because it’s something that will stress me out beyound belief.

So on that thought, this post is done for the day. I’ll update the blog again when I have more time and my brain is actually working correctly.