And i wish the best to you and yours

You have that right to state your opinion and I respect that. As I said above, It’s not about killing a deer, I consider that a bonus. It’s about listening to what’s around you and taking all that in. Have you ever just gone in the woods and just listened to nature? Watching the chipmunks, birds, snakes, etc? At the start of hunting season here in Michigan is when all the small animals are packing up and getting ready for a long and cold winter. I don’t shoot every deer that I see, I pick and chose what to shoot as the 6 point that comes in might be a 8 point next year or better yet, bigger which means more meat and food in my freezer. Whatever is left that doesn’t fit in my freezer goes to the homeless shelters in the area’s and believe it or not, they love it when hunters do that. I’ve done that with many fish that I’ve caught in the summer also after I’ve fully cleaned them.

Maybe you don’t have the area around you like I do where i live in the sticks and can actually see the stars at night instead of the city lights blocking it out, or be within walking distance of the woods. On my way to work this morning, I had 7 deer run out right in front of me and I just pulled over and watched them feed in the field. After 15 minutes, I felt nice and relaxed. That’s the feeling everyone should feel.

Im sorry if this sounds bad but its the truth.

Have a friend who’d been hit too.
He’s recovering, slowly but recovering.
He regained full motricity and speech ability, just some difficulty when he’s tired.

I do hope you’ll follow the same path (recovering that is).